face it

x sukanya mcm ni. aku xsuka awkward moment. xsuka rasa serba salah. xsuka!

k. dah habis marah.

boleh x jadi peter pan? takut nye nk face future yg aku sure 100% more challenging. aku dah kena fikir mcm". bila tgok dlm luggage yg diangkut dri tung temah ke rumah rse yg sbenanye aku betul" dah form V. dah kene serius. sobs.

ya Allah,, hambamu ini mohon diberi kekuatan dari segenap segi. terlalu lemah untuk meneruskan. hanya padaMu aku berharap.

Parcel

teringat cerita ustazah pasal manusia dlm kubur. time 2 teringat dkt mne" yg dah face sakhratul maut. n every day akan aku pesan dkt dri sdri utk antar parcel dkt diorg. sbb aku xnk xdpt parcel hari" bila dah sampai sana. InsyaAllah, kalau kite tlg org mesti ada yg tlg kita. Allah itu Maha Pemurah. Islam is beautiful.

so,, jgn lpe hantar parcel hari" utk mrk yg dah pergi dulu daripada kita kalau kita xnk x dpt parcel bila time kita dah sampai.

biar susah di dunia jgn susah di akhirat,

tiada yg manis di dunia manis di akhirat. InnaAllah ma'a Assobirin

heyya,, it's already 2013. ceptnye masa berlalu, sedar" dah nk februari. really truth from bottom my heart that it's very hard to be fivers. sgt.

awl" tahun da dimulakan dgn air ujan dari mata aku slps 3 mggu sekolah. slpas tahan selama almost a week lpas dpt jwatan 2. sob"

the day dpt jwatan 2 xsmpai nk ngis bila nmpak org yg dpt jawatan yg selama ni aku impikan 2 nangis. i have to be strong for her. help her in many aspect. fortunately, dorm sblh" je. lepas tahan" akhirnya burst gak dkt nisa. kronik kot mlm 2. speechless nk ckp ap perasaan aku bila dpt bnd 2. syukur Alhamdulillah ada mimi nan fishy yg sll nk tlg aku yg mmg ......

mira,, kerja tu kena ikhlas tau? baru lah tenang je buat kerja. yeah,, time by time,, aku realise sumthing. i'm already in form five. there more challenging thingS await me outside. more challenging than being a secretary.

then. aku mengalami kejutan budaya dgn menjejakkan diri ke kelas yg aku xpernah impi utk mghuni. more suprising than 4B. ugh,,I miss 4B so much. InsyaAllah aku akan cuba immune kan diri aku seboleh" nya. Allah ma'a na. InsyaAllah.

like people said,, makin kite besar makin kita kenal dgn dri sdri. same goes like me. aku mmg jenis yg akan hidup dlm dunia sdri je. for me,, it the BEST thing should happen. sbb,, nk bersaing" ni merimaskan. minta maaf dkt semua yg ada terasa dgn aku selama ni. different people have their own self. aku lg selesa mcm tu.
moreover,haha. aku assume boiling point aku 5 degree je. haha,, aku akan cuba naikkan lg. ttbe ingt usrah dgn kak nadia n akk" osem yg lain. astaghfirullah al azim. rindunya akk".

rohani dah dahaga ni. lg",, aku akan try nk adapt dgn bnda baru especially everything like rotate 360 away from the normal one. kena pandai" la mira nk control malu aku tu. esp, ckp dkt depan. sampai bila nk gagap" ckp dpn org ramai. asik jimatkn blusher je,, bole bankrup M.A.C or revlon.

a ton of sorry aku nk ucapkan kat setiap manusia yg pernah jumpa sekilas mahupun seumur hidup dia. a very thanks I would like to dedicate to all person that ever help me even for a word. _ _
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Gonna be soon enough

aku ingt nk post mlm bia sesuai sikit nk masa tapi...

ok. 2012 will be say goodbye to me. tomorrow will be a very new year and new chapter. the 2012's book will be keep safely and new book will be colour and write beautifully with full of laugh and tears. InsyaAllah,

n next year me myself again typing about 2013 n ready to face 2014 if Allah still give me opportunity.

this year ajar aku new thing. haha,, will all the fellow classmate n also all the Quints. thanks everybody.

A very thank you I want to say to the One who give me the chance to live on His earth and world,, Alhamdulillah

bersyukur sangat dpt rasa tahun 2012 yg pastinya banyak membantu aku untuk ready facing akhirat.

dpt jumpa akk" osem yg pastinya awesome. dapat rasa mcm mana perasaan budak kelas last. nway xd la teruk sgt it's kind of precious experience. knowing closely to Yantie, Yan, Qistina n smue 4B. much appreciate.

thanks. n also ajar aku utk improve diri aku n x leka dgn dunia yg pastinya byk lagha. Alhamdulillah.

I'm really hope next year I'll keep improving myself to success either world or akhirat, InsyaAllah

doakan Islam tetap teguh, masyarakat Islam terutama aku sedar akan kepentingan kehidupan di akhirat itu and also I will get the opportunity to have a certificate or slip of SPM 2013 written 9A+ on it. InsyaAllah